The Game of Life

Everyone of us has some or the other problems. Problems from the outside world are bound to happen, however its your problems within which are the real cause. I wish i could overcome all the problems lying within me but this wish seems to be a long away. Did this indicate one more problem?

I have been a confident person to start with who believes he will definitely make it big some day, How? i don't wanna disclose. When? You will come to know. I am encountering many slow downs.
Coming across such a slow down once or twice is fine but i am coming across it regularly.
One of the following reasons should be true for this
1. I was expecting things to happen quickly.
OR
2. i am lacking something now.
After close observations and some analysis, i realized that both these reasons contribute to my so called downfall.

Lacking something is again not a problem but i defend myself for those things. I don't do things just for the sake of it, i have always done things with a belief that i am doing right as i have my reasons for my actions. However there have been things for which i will have strong reasons but even then they might not be accepted in this world.

Getting back to the 2 reasons

1. Huge Expectations : Expectations have always been high not only from myself but also from people whom i believe in. Very rarely am i surprised with any good thing happening cause i might have expected it or i might have expected something more. I feel this is one of my major problems cause i am expecting from anybody without even knowing the person. I have tried to get over this problem but somehow it comes back. My hands just want to defend myself by typing a reason to defend myself for this problem but i have managed to stop them. How should i get over this problem still seems to be a puzzle for me and i am trying all i can to get over it soon.

2. There can be many things which i might be lacking. Keeping up with the post, there can be many problems which i might be having besides just expecting. Somehow i have managed to get a bit of time from the people i know and value to realize the things which i am not at all good at.
I knew most of them but as i mentioned i use to defend myself easily and run away from them and make myself feel better. I feel this list is a bit longer then i could have imagined.

2.1 I don't like to be in Groups : I feel comfortable with 1 or 2 persons at a time rather than a group. I feel highly uncomfortable in a group and highly awkward if the group contains any person i can't relate to or i cannot connect to. To get over it, i will try to be part of as many group activities as possible. If i celebrate my bday this year, i guess i will invite quite a few of them who never interested me and i was unable to connect to them.

2.2 Getting lost in bad things : When any friend narrates me about his/her bad time i advice them to stop thinking about it but when its my turn to face a tough day or a bad time i cannot stop thinking about it. The only time i will stop thinking about a bad thing is when i encounter any new bad thing. My mind can't be happy if it doesn't have a bad thing to think about it. The worst part if that i get so lost thinking about them that at times i don't realize things happening around me. Getting lost in things has worked for me many times when it comes to working on goals but not always as i mentioned. I seriously have to do something about it or else the future seems to be full of darkness.

2.3 Unstable decision making skills : I have very weak decision making skills and i am unstable at times which are not good signs as i see it. I don't wanna get into much details of it but i know i will easily get over them.

2.4 Stop Cribbing dude : This is not the problem, this is an advice i give to myself. Cribbing just cause i expected and it didn't happen. So having huge expectations seems to have resulted into this one.

2.5 Trust once lost is difficult to have again : Once i loose my trust from anyone, i bet you might not find me with that person often. i have done this previously in my life and i am not sure whether this is right. I don't feel like trusting anyone who lied to me or cheated me for whatever reason it might be. Believe me, i am still not convinced whether this is actually a problem. Incase any of you can comment a strong reason about this being a problem, do let me know.

I think i am done for the day. The Game of life has completed 10,000 hits finally. It took a long time for me to get back to blogging and i hope i overcome all the above things and i start blogging more regularly. Before i could actually end as i have to get ready for office, i just wanna share that I am planning to blog on technology soon. Hey Happy Ganesh Chaturthi everyone! God Bless you and me too. :-)

You were the one who was treated badly without any reason, you were the one who weeped for justice all alone with no support what so ever. You were exploited, lied, fooled, cheated, betrayed and given sleepless nightmares. Your capabilities were questioned by some incapables. You listened to everyone, took all the pain. You thought that someday, it will be your day and others will pay. You thought God is watching and the wrong will pay. But how long are you going to live with your thinking which just gives you hope and nothing else? When will you actually do something for your respect, do something for your rights with which you were born? Do you know that even you have a purpose in life or are you a so useless that you have realized that you are good for nothing?Hats off to you! I feel like kicking you. You are a shame on humanity and you know it yourself. How long are you going to live such a pathetic sucking life. How long are you going to take life for granted? How long, damn it, how long? Your patience is your cowardness! What are you actually waiting for ? Waiting for someone to take you out of this deep hole? People are with you only for a f*cking selfish reason. Nobody is gonna save you cause at the end of the day, you are all alone. Don't worry about the people, balls to them. Listen up , time has come, time has come to give it back, time has come to prove a point, time has come to shut those mouths and seal them forever. Tomorrow don’t complain that life is sad cause you have been warned today. It’s now or never. Time has come to rebel and start a revolution, a revolution which will bring a change in your life and nobody can even raise a finger on you.Wake up, Stand up, remove the dust thrown on you by the senseless and prove them what you are?. Prove your existence, prove a point once and for all. Its your time to turn the tables and nobody can stop you. You have to make a difference, a huge difference and get counted. Go for it, chase your dreams and follow your heart and never bother about others. Take a step forward, you can do it, even you know it then what the hell are you waiting for?

I have never been so proud. Till Yesterday the proudest day of my life was when i scored an HSC PCM of 95.33% but yesterday i felt more proud. Did i repeat such a performance in my Masters?? No, Did i become the project manager ? No. Actually i don't want to be one. I love programming and i don't wanna miss these days of a struggling programmer. Then what is the reason. Well you can find out by reading it. I hope that after reading it, even you will be proud of me.. :) How optimistic am i ?!?!?


I have been a music learner from almost a year now and i used to respect my music teacher ..hmmm.. let me call him TM. Well TM is also an abbreviation for the IT firm i work in..) Yes so i used to respect TM as i have respected all my teachers. Music lessons were fine and meeting friends and having fun with them was great. I have always tried to be as funny as possible. Cracking jokes is one of my childhood hobby. I love to see the people smile. Just like every pack of 52 cards has a joker, i was the one among my friends and i enjoyed it.

Days passed and few things use to strike me badly. I am a keen observer and try to read people as soon as possible and i came across a few ugly things. TM says he has studied in UK but i learnt from people who know him since his childhood days that he has studied in India. Actually i came across many things said by him which i learn were big Fake. He use to win respect of the people by this attitude of his and most of the students use to believe him. Some students discussed quite a few things about which they were not happy at all.They say, that they have hardly learnt any new thing from last 6 months even after paying the fees. Some students felt cheated. They say that they have contributed 500-1000 rupees for a concert arranged by TM and for TM but they had no transparency on how was their money utilized. They say that overall contribution must have gone above 50,000 and they think if a concert is costing them so much , it will be better not to have it cause at the end of the day they just wanted to learn music which they could have done it faster without any concerts. Some had issues regarding the cost of the musical instrument they got from him, costing 2-3 times the market price. TM use to talk about his fame and kept telling that many famous people know him but at the end of the day he was a alien to all of them. He use to talk about things which never seemed true to me and with time i kept getting proofs about he being a Fake. Sometimes i use to discuss with class friends and sometimes i used to continue be the joker. But ya these things did strike be at times but i never had too much time for them. Very rarely i use to wonder that why cant these students who have so many complaints directly stand up and tell it to TM. But i guess they were short on courage and they never even thought that such a thing is possible. Never thought that any single person can ask these questions. Well they continued to be helpless and didn't do anything about it but kept discussing. Most of them wanted CHANGE but nobody wanted to take a step towards it.

When a friend betrayed me brutally.
I have been loosing respect for TM and as you all know, i don't respect the age, i respect the qualities.There came a day when i told one of my music class friend S that i am loosing respect him. She asked me the reason but i dint tell her. I was reluctant to tell her for a few reasons. First - she was having important exams and i being a well wisher never wanted her to feel disturbed, Second - i felt she would not like the reasons i give her, after all she was one of those blind followers who respected him.She kept asking me repeatedly through text messages. Sometimes i used to be busy in office and sometimes i was in some important meetings and i kept avoiding this question of her. She made many attempts and she thought that i not telling her was a question on the trust i had on her. After all these things i thought of telling her a few things about TM being fake and not liked by many and i don't have any respect for him. I told her as a friend, i didn't knew her much even then i showed my trust on her but she was ready with a game which she had planned. She wanted to make sure that i pay heavily for whatever i said about her music teacher, she wanted me to pay heavily for showing trust on her, pay heavily for being honest.



Never thought a teacher can go so down to insult a student.
24th Jan : I reached the class as usual. Did not knew that S has played a game by breaking my trust. 40 students gathered and the class was about to start. But TM had some other plans, how can he tolerate that an ordinary guy can waste all his fake efforts to earn respect from people. I guess he was eagerly waiting for this moment and wanted to blast at me, i continued to be cool n calm as ever,i wasn't scared of anything, after all speaking the truth is not bad, is it?He wanted to insult the student who was spreading the truth, he wanted to insult a student and break his confidence to an extent so that he will never ever return back to the class. The words he used were the worst i have ever had from a teacher. He also wanted to play it safe by indirectly insulting me. He did not reveal my name in front of me. He called me a person who is barking behind his back. He calls himself a CA who can sign autographs and buy people like me and he continued, while i was listening to him, a bit shocked but i maintained a smile which i guess made him more angry and he went more down to insult me. Somebody said that i am not even worth talking about. Being insulted in front of 40 people hurts but i didn't show it. I was still maintaining a smile. When i looked at S and saw her laughing, it did hurt more but even then i maintained my cool and continued with the class that day. I always looked up to her for some of her qualities but today she had fallen flat in my eyes.I must confess those 2 hours i spent in the class were the most uncomfortable 2 hours of my life. There were many people who were staring at me and i realised they have been told by TM that it was me who was responsible. But even after all this happened, insulted badly, called a Dog, TM saying that he can buy such people and people staring, but trust me even after all this crappy things, i was not guilty. i still had a smile, i was wondering where was i wrong, Was i wrong cause i shared a truth with a friend S or was i wrong cause i trusted her? I was left all alone.I don't think i was wrong but ya, i did decide i will never ever turn back to this music class where a teacher thinks , he can buy his students (he has said such a thing about so many students who worship him). Such people don't deserve an ounce of a respect but then some students act weird by by trusting and respecting him blindly.

Mom reminded me the lessons of life
When i reached home and i shared this incident with my parents during dinner, they were shocked. Mom asked why didn't i stand up and corrected him then and there itself. I actually didn't have an answer to her. Frankly speaking i was in a shock and then i thought , lemme watch how down TM can go. Also thought that the students will realize what he thinks about them. Mom advised me to turn back the next day and clarify things, she wanted me to prove that truth is above all the lies, she wanted me to make sure that all the values that she had taught me throughout my life were not waste. Yes she wanted me not to give up like a coward and raise my voice. She reminded me that never go with the majority just for the sake of it, do what you feel is right. When i went to sleep i was constantly remembering all those crappy things which happened, being insulted, being betrayed, a laughing S, people blaming but at the end of them i see God giving me a hope that honesty can win against all odds. After a lot of thinking, I decided i will get back to the class next day with all the courage i have.


I was called a Dog, so i had to bark.
The next day 25th , i turned back to the class. TM must have been shocked to see me after all that happened. It was my turn to give it back to a person who calls his student a Dog. It was time to remind him that "Every Dog has its Day". I told him politely that i wish to clarify things and want to get out of my guilt by accepting my mistake in front of my class. He thought i would be sorry to him and that will increase his respect but i had some other plans. I was actually there to stand for the truth, stand for something i believed in very confidently. By being polite and speaking crap , i just wanted an opportunity to speak and unmask him.When everyone gathered i spoke.

I know most of you might be aware that the person who was brutally insulted yesterday was me. There were many cheap comments passed. Somebody said that i am not worth talking, i want to ask that person, how would you feel if tomorrow i pass this comment about your son. Somebody said that i was barking behind his back, how often does that person bark about his students behind their back. He says that he is a CA and can buy me, well if you are so rich then don't charge us, and if you think you can buy humans , you have a cheap thinking and i want to remind you that i am priceless. Even if you sell everything you have, you can't even get 1% of me. Ya, i shared a few things with S but everything i shared comes from the people sitting in the class. I am an ordinary guy just like all of you and i think i have the right to raise a question when i am not given the transparency about the money i am charged.I have practiced from last 6 months for the concert but today i don't feel like performing for such a teacher.
I was stopped, i wanted to disclose many more fake things he has said to win respect. Wanted to disclose that he never studied in UK,i have the proofs and how badly he speaks about his students behind their back but i was stopped. It was TM who made sure that i leave before i complete. I can see the fear in his eyes, he did not have the guts to face the truth or else he would have given me an answer and not stopped me.

I don't know how did the people sitting there took me but i just hope,they open their eyes and find the difference between the truth and a lie, difference between honesty and fake. I hope God helps them and he is watching, i can feel he is proud of me. I can see his proudness in my mom's eyes. My mom felt the proudest yesterday. I don't think , she was ever so happy with any of my school results (which i got without cheating). But ya, yesterday she felt as she has succeeded in being a good mother and i must say she is the best. I have done quite well in academics but more than any day, i feel this was my proudest day. A fake man tried his utmost best by barking behind my back and breaking my confidence but i turned back and spoke the truth in front of him, in front of his students and if i was allowed to continue , i would have successfully unmasked him. Its Sad, infact its ugly when a teacher keeps spoiling the name of almost all his students behind their back. I am just happy to be out of such ugly things. I am not sure to what extent i succeeded in unmasking the fake man but i am happy and extremely proud of myself and i feel blessed.

Be nice to everyone and God will be kind to you. Be good at heart and you will have a good life. I am tired of all these crappy lessons. I always had a doubt that, i being good to you will only help you have a good life and not me. Today as i sat alone in the coffee house with 2 coffee cups, my heart is totally convinced that being good does not guarantee me good life, in fact it doesn't even guarantee me life.

It was few months back when i sitting here, same seat, waiting for her. My eyes use stare at the door expecting it to open and finally the door opened and she rushed in, she was a it late that day but who cares! We never had any rules to be on time, no rules on who's wrong, perhaps that's friendship. I heard about Sanjana Tiwari from a friend and right from the day i heard her name and all those coffee chats with her has been a pleasure.Sanjana , No , she was not just another girl. She was different and i meant it, seriously.At least she was not like a few of my boring friends.Sometimes i feel so happy to be away from them and meet her. Sanjana was someone for whom you would like to miss out those stressful office meetings, calls, that IT world where i see no honesty and make sure you meet her, even if it was for a 5 minutes. She was a stress buster for a person like me who sleeps, drinks and eats IT.She is someone with whom you would like to share all your jokes cause only her simple honest smile makes you realize their worth.

She was better than any of you can imagine, she had a very good heart. Its been long when i met such people, who give others more priority than themselves. Sometimes i use to wonder,whether she actually belongs to this world, i feel the world never deserved her. But she was a part of it. At times i use to tell her about some tough facts of life and how the world is so mean. But she always use to stop me and argue on it. The problem with her was that she use to think that everyone is like her with a clean heart. I being a big critic (a typical virgo), whenever told her to be careful from some people around, she use to get angry and quarrel with me. I never argued much with her on this, thinking that she was yet to come across the real world and when she finds it, she will learn herself but i was never short on suggestions.


We did spend many days at the Coffee house and all were memorable, talking to her was always fun. While i use to patiently listen to her never ending exam worries and she use to give me Tips on blogging, personal life etc...

Oh Preetam, you don't know how to end, the end has to be good only then it will have an impact on the readers.
Okay, stop shouting. A blogger is getting suggestions from a girl who is so worried about writing her exams. Hey it seems you don't know how to cheat. Do you want some tips ?
No, not now. in case i need them i will ask you 5-6 days before the exams.

Sanjana was a mix of everything.She was highly impatient at times, may be out of excitement but when really required she turns out be most patient.The best thing about her has been that she use to carry herself. I don't know , whether she learned it or she was unknown about it. She is highly immatured at times and you feel she is a fool but in the very next second , she will act smart and fool you. There were times when i used to enjoy some music in the coffee house,while she used to write something in her diary, sounds boring , doesn't it?? At times she use to forget her diary the coffee house boy use to return her next time. Coffee with her was better than Coffee with Gay Karan anyday. Having those never ending discussions with her are more memorable.

According to her, all elders must be respected blindly, while according to me people who deserve it, whether younger or elders should only be respected. They cant get any credit, just cause they were born before me. We had many differences, perhaps this was something which stretched out debates, discussions or whatever you call it for long.

Sanjana was a pure vegetarian, not only in what she eats , but also what she speaks and i being diagonally opposite to her, controlled all those non-veg jokes for which i might be famous for. It was fun pulling her leg but at times she would kick back hard.


How Sad! you call yourself a topper and you seem to be so worried about your exams, Shame on you!
How Sad! What a friend! instead of helping me, you are demotivating me.
OK, OK is it possible than i give Ur exams ?
I don't know, but NO
Why?
I don't wanna fail.

She was good at some silly jokes, which might not even bother you but she would laugh out quite loud at them, as if her jokes were the best.

The last day i met her , she was quite happy. She was going to mumbai the next day. Their was some worry about he upcoming exams as usual, but she was also excited about her mumbai trip.
Hey, Should i get something for you ?
Yes, if you insist so much. you can.
Huh?? But when did i insist?? Anyways what should i get?
whatever you like.
Ok.I just hope, i return and study harder, i wish to top again.
Oh, don't worry, good things are bound to happen with good people.
Thats like a good friend.

That day she left for mumbai for a week. I still use to visit the coffee house waiting for the week to get over , eagerly waiting what will she get for me. But i never knew this wait will be forever. 2 days later i came to know from her friend, that she was stuck in the mumbai terror attacks and she is no more. I was shocked badly and couldn't believe it at all. I mean , i just met her the other day. This news literally shattered me and i lost myself for some time. I didn't even had the courage to visit her house. I was deeply hurt and even till today i am finding it difficult to come out of it.

After a week i did visit the coffee house again, the coffee house boy returned me her diary which she forgot on the last day.I thought of reading it and i directly went to the last page of it.

Dear Diary,
I am so excited today, the world is so good and God is so kind. Finally i am going to mumbai. I know, i know, i should actually be stydying for my exams but i feel, once i come back i will cover it. I have decided to get some gifts for a few people, a bit confused about what should i get for this fool sitting in front of me. Well, i will search. i just hope i have a great trip and then some good exams.

These words from her made me totally numb. There was a day when she use to sit right across and talk about the beauty of life and i use to wonder, Will her goodness, kindness for the unknown world ever end ? I always felt the word Sanjana was full of life but never thought that her life will be short. I always thought that she will discover life in her own way but never thought that she will not even get a chance. I always thought that someday she will come to me and complain about the world but the moment she realized it, she lost her life.



Its been a month now and i have been regular to the coffee house, perhaps i am still expecting her. At times i still look at the door and expect it to suddenly open, i still order 2 cups of coffee thinking that she might return and ask me for those exam cheating tips. I know her absence has affected me mentally, but at times i still feel her presence and at times i keep expecting. Sometimes i feel , she might be stuck somewhere trying to come back, She might be stuck somewhere all alone wondering how will she prepare for her next exam, She might be somewhere confused about what gift she will get for me.There are so many people who keep harming others but why did God call someone who is harmless, someone who only knows good, someone who cant even think bad,. If deeds were to decide her future then she deserved to live forever. Unfortunately thats not the case.

Today its been a month and with time i have lost all hopes. I wonder, how can God do this? May be he was short on angels or may be even he has given up when it comes to this world. I just hope and pray she is happy somewhere up and and having a sip of coffee as i write. She must be waiting eagerly to see how i end this post. She will always be missed.

I prayed to God in deep pain,
As i don't know what should be tried
In reply i just saw a few drops of rain,
Indicating that even the God has Cried.

The year is about to end and its been a good one for me. I am happy not only for this year but also for one more fiction which i just completed and i hope you found it worth reading. Happy new year!!

Ok, tell me what happened this time?
(I asked a friend who was waiting for me at my favorite fast food place, McDonalds)
Same again, even she left me.:(
Oh... again!!Well just a sec, let me first get something to eat and then you can start narrating about your never ending breakups.One mcchicken for you and me, Is that fine?
Fine, but hey i will pay the bill
Ok i will have 2... very hungry, seriously..

(I got them finally but in the process a girl almost banged into me. God knows, when will they learn, CAT walk is only meant for models and that too only on Ramp. As i reached my table, i can make out that my friend was very upset. After all he had one more breakup, something he finds very difficult to overcome. He reminded me of a person i knew very well, he reminded me of a person who is no more, he reminded me of myself 1-1/2 years ago. I am reborn. But i decided to be normal instead of expressing sympathy. I thought that may make him feel better after all he was paying for me. That’s true friendship, isn't it?)

Yup, tell me. What new happened this time ?
She Left me. :(

I asked, what NEW happened this time ?
(He was serious, and had only one thing in mind, he just wanted to overcome this bad phase which was giving him a very tough time)
Well last weekend, she wanted to watch a film and i was busy with my work but she didn’t understand and she got really angry. I tried calling her but she doesn't attend. You were right the other day about the the most confusing question is life. "What do girls want?"
Sauce.
Sauce?
Do you want some sauce?
No, i thought something else, i mean how can she be so bad, i mean from last 6 months she has been with me and just one NO for a movie and she doesn't wanna talk.
I don't think that's bad, i know people who stop talking to others without any reason. At least she had a reason. So what if it was just a movie.

But i was not interested in that movie and also I was having some work to finish
See, you like her, you must respect her wishes and try to fulfill them. Also she doesn't wanna understand you. Infact she doesn't wanna listen to you. How does it feel to be Himesh?
(You might think i was playing with him but NO, i was just being normal. i was just happy that i was not in his position, ye seriously i was happy with myself)
But what about my wishes ???
You are a boy.
I know it since childhood.
I never asked for confirmation. i know that. but you must also know, that it’s you who has to sacrifice if you are in a relationship with any girl.
Why can’t she sacrifice?
She has already made a very big sacrifice by choosing you. :P and you did not respect her wishes, Poor girl, Oh Girl where are you ? Let’s meet and i will take you for a movie.

(I think, he was getting a bit irritated, he might be thinking that i wasn't listening to him seriously but i was very serious. I wanted him to take such things in a lighter way)
You are not understanding the seriousness of the situation,I think i am wasting my time by discussing this with you?
I don't know about you but i can only give you 10 more minutes or i want one more burger.


I thought u must have be tired when you come here after office hours, but you seem to be full of energy.(Did i succeed in changing the topic?)
Well it’s the Selenium effect.
Are you talking about the drug?
No, i m not talking about the drug, it’s a Firefox add-on, Let me explain you, Add-ons are like plug-ins, which can be used…. oh forget it, you won’t understand, you crappy Call boy.
What?
Sorry , i meant call centre boy.
(Well, again he started his sad story, may be i failed..:()
Every time she wanted to shop, i accompanied her but just once i said NO for a movie and she left me. She thinks i am her pet.
May be, See i will advice you to leave her but she has already done that. You don’t need to do anything. She doesn't want to talk to you, may be she doesn't bother about you. Forget her Relax. Enjoy! Enjoy your singlicity. Live the moment

Can you please gimme a good suggestion? something positive, something through which i can get her back.
Well than you have to forget that you are a Man! Go and fall on her knees and tell her that you are her Dog and will remain for as long as she wants. See girls will come into your lives and warm your eyes but when they leave, they will kick your a*s and you will suffer and might not recover for 6 -10 months and you keep getting kicked. How many Break-ups.Take a break!

(He was not ready to listen, he was adamant, He was not at all happy with her but even then he wanted her. Is this love or is this foolishness?)
Can't you be serious, I need her, you don't know how much i miss her. I find difficult to imagine life without her.Please
(By this time i noticed some moisture in his eye, I have realized that it was Love, I don’t know what should i tell him. There have been incident when i have been at the receiving end and have asked people for suggestions. This time it was my time to advice him and clear out his mind, a mind which was totally filled with love for someone, someone who didn’t seem to bother about him, i finally decided to be a bit serious serious which has been quite rare off late, i decided to be honest without bothering, how he might feel)


Well lemme tell you few things frankly and do think over it, when i leave.What do you actually expect from me, do you want that i should call her and beg her. What will you get from it? Sympathy . I will advice you to stop having relationships for some time, stop those temporary ones forever. These relationships are good for people who have a heart which doesn't get attached to anyone, who forget about it easily. Such things are not for you cause u get attached easily. Who knows while we are discussing these things, she might have gone out with some other guy for the movie. You can't trust anyone after all. Don't think, what she might be thinking about you, there might be many people speaking behind my back and breaking my trust but i don't bother or value them. You know whatever you have done, you have done it with a good heart, so be happy with yourself atleast . Stop blaming yourself. I can understand you and can relate to you but then i know that its difficult but not impossible to come out of it. Infact its you who can make it easy.
How?

Smile, I have been waiting to see that since I came , Enjoy life, Forget her, Keep making new friends, Even if she comes back, leave her. A person who cannot understand you and doesnt even want to listen to u doesn’t deserve you even for a second. Instead of wasting time thinking about her, utilize your time to achieve something good, If not for anyone, at least achieve them for an angel who will spend her entire life with you unconditionally. How can you forget her? You are cheating her, without even meeting her.

ok..(this small ok dint sounded convincing to me, i knew it was going to be very difficult for him to overcome it)

Cheer up,i need to leave and before i become nostalgic like you and loose myself lemme remind you, if u have a Girl friend again, it will be you who will have to make sacrifices, it will be you who will be a Dog cause once again you are a boy. :)
Any advice on this?
Yes, the simplest way out is, have a Sex change operation.. :P Think over it.

(Finally a smile) :-)

Smile my friend, only then world will smile back!


While I was returning home, I was wondering, how much have I changed?I have just met myself . From being a person who only listened to his heart and never applied his brains in any relationship to a person who puts his brain to work more now,to a person who tries to find humour in anything and everything. Since childhood I have preferred to be open for new experiences. Experiences have taught me many things and as I walked alone I recollected many such things which din’t go my way and even till today I don’t know the reason why?. But these experiences have helped me to Rediscover Life in a different way and today I am very happy, while i advised him to take a break from break-ups even I have made sure that my life is on a big break from all the complexities and i also make sure that i enjoy every moment I live.